Lift Off

Alright well here we go. Thanks to my uncle (http://waystowellness4u.blogspot.com/), I'm trying to get into a routine and get my life in order and this is hopefully going to be one of my routines. I don't think anyone wants to hear about me getting my life in order though, but then again I'd be surprised if anybody anywhere wants to hear any of this nonsense. Today was what I thought was my first day of class. I woke up after 5 hours of sleep, took the 2 hour train commute to school only to find class starts on thursday, awesome. I wasn't to upset though because if I did have class I would've gotten home at 11pm; instead I got home at 1pm and did something productive. I went to the gym (another one of those routine things I'm trying to start). Now I'm trying to get some plans together to go to the Islanders game tonight. I always wished I played hockey, I'm going to try and start once I get some money in my pocket. Mmmm, money. I hate it, but I need it. Money doesn't bring you happiness, but it provides a means to do things that make you happy. Currently I lack the funds to do many things that would make me happy. I need new a new surfboard, I need money for Snowboarding, I'd like to travel somewhere warm and with waves, A new camera Lens...the list could go on for a very long time; and if i had those things I'd be mildly happier, at least for a bit. That was a run on sentence if i've ever seen one. What is happiness anyway, would those things really make me happy? Now that I think about it, probably not for too long. Relationships with those that we love, doing something productive, bettering yourself, reaching a goal. Now those are things to be happy and proud about. Most of us though are too lazy, sidetracked, confused, etc to realize that. Most of us think we're happy, but the truth is most people aren't. That sounds really pessimistic, I'm sorry. I know that I want to be happy, I know that I'm not happy right now. To be honest I don't know what would make me happy, I'm working on that. As cliche as it sounds one of the only things that makes me truly happy, and creates a lasting happiness is surfing. That's probably why I'm so cranky. It's winter and I hate surfing in the cold, wearing thick rubber wetsuits. On top of that we've had a bit of a flat spell and I missed the only day of waves cause I was working. Oh well, maybe I'll work it out this happiness dilema on here for all of you (by all of you I mean none, since no one is going to read this). Well thats enough rambling for now. If anyone IS reading this, I'll tell you a little more about myself in future "blogs". That is such a stupid word, this isn't my "blog" , this is my online public journal. I hope someone enjoys it.